St. Paul wrote of himself: “I know that no good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh; the desire to do right is there but not the power. What happens is that I do, not the good I will to do, but the evil I do not intend. But if I do what is against my will, it is not I who do it, but sin which dwells in me. This means that even though I want to do what is right, a law that leads to wrongdoing is always ready at hand. My inner self agrees with the law of God, but I see in my body’s members another law at war with the law of my mind; this makes me the prisoner of the law of sin in my members. What a wretched man I am! Who can free me from this body under the power of death?” (Rom 7). Paul then calls on Jesus Christ as his deliverer.
St. Paul learned that he was powerless when left to himself. He believed that Jesus was able and willing to deliver him. Finally, he had the courage to follow Jesus and fulfill his mission.
Lord, I frequently find myself to be powerless. Reveal to me my need for you; give me trust in your compassion so that I may follow your lead. Then you can fashion me into an apostle of your heart.