Nature can create moods that have little or nothing to do with the state of our souls. We are not pure spirits. Our bodies, our brains, have disabilities which can make us sad. We may misunderstand our state of mind as sinfulness or mistakenly interpret it as an indicator of Jesus’ attitude toward us. Illness and the despondency which results can be a way of sharing in the passion of Jesus. It may, however, take some time to accept them in that way. It is a good idea not to be impatient with ourselves nor to be pious about someone else’s suffering.
Jesus can lead us even through great trials because he overcame great trials on the Cross —or rather the Holy Spirit overcame in him. He made an act of supreme trust in his Father’s love—an act of pure faith, showing us the way. His desolate heart became victorious when he was able to say: “Father, into your hands I commend my spirit” (Lk 23).
At the end of my life I hope to be able to say, It is consummated, I have kept the faith. Only by your power, Lord, will I be able to persevere. This day I renew my trust in you. Once more I put myself and my future into your hands.