The Gospel of St. John tells us about Jesus feeding the crowd, then coming to his disciples on the lake while they struggled in their boat, and finally, promising himself in the Eucharist. At the end he said: “The words I spoke to you are spirit and life” (Jn 6).
Jesus often feeds us with felt peace and joy when we are first emerging from a life of unbelief and selfishness. There comes a time when we begin to feel dryness instead of peace and joy. We ask: Where is Jesus? When we arrive at the other side of this trial we have a different way of relating to Jesus, one based on faith.
Even in our trials, however, Jesus is compassionate. In our hearts we will hear him from time to time saying to us: “It is I; do not be afraid.” The union we have with Jesus when we successfully navigate through a period of dryness is much closer and more true. Then we can thank him for his care of us.
I want you, O Lord, more than your consolations. I am willing to trust you so that you can purify my heart. I know that you will not really abandon me.