Just as newlyweds see life through rose-tinted glasses, on our spiritual honeymoon we found it easy to pray without much distraction. Prayer was often filled with sensible consolations. We fell in love with Jesus in the sense of “falling in love with love.” That was appropriate at the beginning. Soon however flaws appeared, not in Jesus to be sure but in our relationships with God and others. Our prayer was no longer always sweet and peaceful. Our brothers and sisters were not always sweet and peaceful. We were not always sweet and peaceful. The ideal gave way to reality.
There is no paradise on earth. At some times all of us are tempted. The temptations take various forms: in place of listening to God, to doing our own will; in place of following a Lord who was poor, to being attached to things; in place of single-heartedness, to being drawn to compromises of the heart. These are the trials over which love can triumph.
When I drift, Lord, call me back. When I grow discouraged by my own weaknesses, encourage me. I know that you came to call sinners not the just; those who are ill, not the well.