In the Scripture Jesus shows his power in two ways. When he healed Peter’s mother-in-law, “He took her by the hand and her fever left her” (Mt 8). On this occasion Jesus showed his power by simply healing a sick person. When St. Paul was given a “thorn in the flesh” he begged the Lord that it might leave him. Jesus replied: “My grace is enough for you, for in weakness power reaches perfection” (2 Cor 12). It is often very difficult to know whether healing or continued weakness is more likely to bring us closer to God.
Few of us would not pray for deliverance as Paul did. There is nothing wrong with wanting to have our distress relieved. What Jesus asks of us is trust that he knows what he is doing in our lives. We may ask: Was God stopped loving me? Don’t I have enough faith to be helped? There can be little doubt that Paul had faith nor can there be any doubt that Jesus loved him.
When I call out to you, Lord, I do believe that you hear me. Increase my faith in your goodness and concern for me. Give me a deep trust in you no matter what happens in my life.