Admitting powerlessness and the unmanageability of our lives is the first act of honesty when we are afflicted persons. Humility and honesty have a lot in common. Both heal pride and are liberating. The purpose of any program of spiritual living is that we become liberated and find the joy of living.
When we are dishonest with ourselves we are in a way insane. Harboring the notion that we can go on as before in safety, even after repeated experiences proving the contrary, is insane. This insanity often avoids the truth by using denial, anger at others or bargaining. Denial dodges the issue altogether. Anger “puts the cart before the horse.” It blames our inner distress on persons, places and things rather than our own attitudes and behavior. When we bargain we are also looking for an easy way out. We may change where we live or work or with whom we live, trying to escape having to decide to face the truth about ourselves.
Show me, Lord, the denial, anger and bargaining in my own life so that I may come to that moment of honesty in which you can heal me.