Sometimes we are distressed in spirit as Jesus could be distressed in spirit. We may be distressed by our very constitution or the events of the day. It is in this very setting that we are called to con-template the Lord. Moreover, we are called to contemplate him as he really is, for it is Jesus as he really is who can remedy our distress.
Our imaginings of the Lord are not Jesus. Deep within he draws us to himself. He does not expect us to pierce the veil of our own mortality and the divine mystery. But he does expect us to be still and open when he enters us from within in his own way.
Perhaps we cannot touch him as we did years ago. Then he allowed us to grasp him because we knew no better. We did not understand that the art of prayer is letting ourselves be entered and held. Jesus is more subtle now—we are more subtle now—the stirring of love is more gentle, more subtle now.
I want to know you as you really are, Lord. I want to love you, not my imaginings. Teach me how to pray with a simple, open heart.